Hi guys, I recently was having a day with predominantly unmotivated and bored feelings or feelings of being stuck. I was getting inspired and then getting roadblocked in my head. So in the late afternoon I decided to go on a bike ride because I usually enjoy that. I don't take my phone, because I don't want distractions or attachments. All I had with me were two shells, who are great company and symbols to me.
I began riding, heading out from my neighborhood. Not after long I cam to this open dirt-parking area near woods that I knew existed but hadn't explored. There, to my surprise, I found a wind vein, and trails. This place was piquing my interest. Then the thought of those movies where theres some person with a chainsaw in the woods, a gun, or knife popped in my head. Haha, f-e-a-r. And so I went back and forth, venturing into thenear-vecinity of the trail, then coming back, until I asked myself, "What am I afraid of?" (To be honest, I was carrying around fear of confrontation and not being safe earlier that day in my relationships.) I continued, thinking, "What am I afraid of, if everything is a part of me? What could be so bad about meeting that chain-saw or knife-man? Well, sure, it might be terrifying, but if it was, then it would be, and I would react accordingly. That other person would be a part of me... so I realized that now was an opportunity to explore what really scared me about myself. My thoughts, beliefs, negative and positive emotions, and fears of abandonment, death, etc.
I set out jogging down the trail and began to feel the adrenaline and strange mixture of joy and fear. There were beautiful rays of sunlight filtering through the tree tops, and there were noises in the brush nearby that worried me. And after two minutes, I realized it was a circle, this gave me more comfort, as I knew where I could run to if anything happened. And I'll be honest, during my whole run there, there were moments of enjoyment and terror. It wasn't until I made it back to where I began that I felt the waves joy, self confidence, and oneness wash over and through me.
So that was my experience. And what I want to share in this post is that when you are feeling stuck or uninspired, take a risk and find out who you are and how big this world is. Just as we can learn things about ourselves we never knew, we can do the same of the physical world. And I highly recommend taking a risk to someone who doesn't feel like they're having fun in their life at the moment. Things may not work out, or they may work out, very well. You'll never know until you go for it or take the risk of finding out.
And while I'm not recommending reckless behavior, I think that conscious risk is a good catalyst to find out what you want or to discover in general. Use your own intuition and guidance for this one, this tactic worked for me, but it very well may or may not work for you. We are all different people, with different barriers to let down, so I write this for those that may benefit from hearing this.
I will finish with this,
I began riding, heading out from my neighborhood. Not after long I cam to this open dirt-parking area near woods that I knew existed but hadn't explored. There, to my surprise, I found a wind vein, and trails. This place was piquing my interest. Then the thought of those movies where theres some person with a chainsaw in the woods, a gun, or knife popped in my head. Haha, f-e-a-r. And so I went back and forth, venturing into thenear-vecinity of the trail, then coming back, until I asked myself, "What am I afraid of?" (To be honest, I was carrying around fear of confrontation and not being safe earlier that day in my relationships.) I continued, thinking, "What am I afraid of, if everything is a part of me? What could be so bad about meeting that chain-saw or knife-man? Well, sure, it might be terrifying, but if it was, then it would be, and I would react accordingly. That other person would be a part of me... so I realized that now was an opportunity to explore what really scared me about myself. My thoughts, beliefs, negative and positive emotions, and fears of abandonment, death, etc.
I set out jogging down the trail and began to feel the adrenaline and strange mixture of joy and fear. There were beautiful rays of sunlight filtering through the tree tops, and there were noises in the brush nearby that worried me. And after two minutes, I realized it was a circle, this gave me more comfort, as I knew where I could run to if anything happened. And I'll be honest, during my whole run there, there were moments of enjoyment and terror. It wasn't until I made it back to where I began that I felt the waves joy, self confidence, and oneness wash over and through me.
So that was my experience. And what I want to share in this post is that when you are feeling stuck or uninspired, take a risk and find out who you are and how big this world is. Just as we can learn things about ourselves we never knew, we can do the same of the physical world. And I highly recommend taking a risk to someone who doesn't feel like they're having fun in their life at the moment. Things may not work out, or they may work out, very well. You'll never know until you go for it or take the risk of finding out.
And while I'm not recommending reckless behavior, I think that conscious risk is a good catalyst to find out what you want or to discover in general. Use your own intuition and guidance for this one, this tactic worked for me, but it very well may or may not work for you. We are all different people, with different barriers to let down, so I write this for those that may benefit from hearing this.
I will finish with this,
When curiosity strikes and doubt follows,
Take the opportunity to explore your externalized fear,
which is a different expression of your internalized fears.
Because the universe you experience is a part of you beyond all veils,
what you do when you explore the outer world,
is actually another way of exploring your own inner world.
Take the opportunity to explore your externalized fear,
which is a different expression of your internalized fears.
Because the universe you experience is a part of you beyond all veils,
what you do when you explore the outer world,
is actually another way of exploring your own inner world.
(Disclaimer:) I write this as an offering of my current best knowledge on the subject. I do not wish for this to be advice. Instead, continue to take the reigns of your own guidance and listen to your own hearts. My hope is that this can be used as a tool if it resonates with you, not as a by-law.
I love you all ...and I hope you have some fun today. ;)
-Jon
I love you all ...and I hope you have some fun today. ;)
-Jon